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No i genuinely want to kill him. Of course i do, it on my sister after all. Its so gross, you know? It makes ma so so mad to hear a lick of it. It makes me so mad to hear any defense.

I do, i genuinely get so upset at it but i try not to show it because then i feel bad. Its a sad thing to watch and a sad thing to hear. He sickens me. To my core. Genuinely, i genuinely want to smash his face into a wall and watch everything break. And thats saying a lot because i hate gore.

But fuck it makes me so so mad and i don't really have an outlet for this anger. I just sit with it in my head and maybe mention it to my other friends from Time to time. But fuck i hate him. Hang him in a public execution. God i feel so bad for the one who is forsaken.

I really wanna beat his fucking face in.

I hope you see this, I hope you're reading this and as you are i hope it hurts. I hope that my name will forever leave a taste in your mouth, i hope that everytime you see me it pains you, i hope everytime you see me Happy it pains you, i hope everytime you see me with him you regret everything you ever did, and most of all i wish i didnt hope for any of that.

I'm angry still. I'm angry at you. I hate you for what you did, for what you chose to become, for what you chose to do, and very much for how you chose to act now. You hardly have the right to be as sad and depressed as you claimed. It was your own fault. I hate saying that. I hate saying I hate you. I hate the fact I don't really care. You could have been so much more, Do you know that? You could have been so much, we could have been so much. I always thought we were genuinely gonna make it out together. I FULLY believed that we had a future together and it was all I saw. I don’t see much anymore and I feel so sorry for that Mut that had dreams beyond your own.

You Are A Bad Person. You hang out with some objectively bad people. You lied, you cheated, and you played hard.
I pity you.
I wish things were different, I wish You were different, I wish I never met you.

I do not miss you, I miss the idea of you and the person i thought you were.
I hope you miss me, I hope you look back at everything and cry about it like the boy that you are cause you are no man.




Ugh, I hate it.

YOU ARE A LIER YOU ARE A FUCKING LIER!! LIER LIER LIER LIER YOU FUCKING LIER WHY FUCK YOU FUCK YOU I CANT TRUST YOU I CANT TRUST YOU ANYMORE I CANT I CANT YOU LIER \FUCK FUCK YOU FUCK YUO I HATE TYOU YOU FUCKING LIER I HATE YOU I HATE YOU FUCK

lol im a littttlllee angggrrryyy

fucking lier

"fiction effects reality" YOU'RE ACTUALLY A FUCKING IDIOT AND I HOPE YOU STUB YOUR TOE

The amount of people I hear say this pisses me the fuck off because how can you truly be that stupid!!!!!

The content I consume the content I make the content I enjoy all of that shit does not affect reality you dumb stupid idiotic whore!!!!!

SHUT UPP!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Fuck you ill keep reading my problematic fanfiction, ill keep shipping my problematic ships, ill keep making my problematic edits!!!
IDOIT!!

Why am I angry still?
well no, I'm more annoyed I think. I shouldn't be, I feel like. I feel like I don't really "have that right" anymore. what does that even mean?
I don't know, it just feels unfair. it feels terribly unfair. everything feels unfair and that's because it just is.

I don't know how to put it down into words. It's the same mentality Harvey had with one and two, the same mentality we shared for two.

I think of this for Paris though I know it's not to come just as it's not for two. Paris' nation didn't even fall, you know? he hardly fell. He only lost and he did not lose very much. Even after it all, after everything that happened he still has Hector to stand and stay at his side. He still has Cassandra, Aeneas, the likeness of his people. Still. Still

I may be home, I may be free, but I have no justice.
I Have No Justice.



"So you have left the field: I wish you had died there, at the hands of that great soldier who was once my husband."

I feel angry all of a sudden, i don't know why or where exactly its coming from. I dont really want it. I know i was just talking about how i wanted more emotions about it but i very much lied. I hate feeling emotions and i feel bad, not for that one but for him. I feel like i shouldn't be, that it's wrong fro him to know that im still upset over everything.

Im still upset over everything. I feel like i have no one to talk to about it, I've already talked so much about it and the one i would talk to i don't trust anymore. I wouldn't even have anything to say. I don't have anything to say i only have everything to feel.

I hate you, I hate you so much. Im an idiot. She was an idiot. I hate you. Why couldn't you just have been a person for me. I dont miss you. Just the Idea. I hate you, i want to hurt myself.

Nevertheless, I'm getting better. Im happy. I love him and im happy. He makes me happy. He loves me, he holds me, and he makes feel important. Like I'm not just another person there. He loves me.

Do you hear that Paris, Menelaus loves me.

you do realize it's your fault, right? that it was all your own doing for the whole thing? how can you sit there, think and act like this as if you didn't do it all yourself. you chose to act like that, you chose to do the things you did, now you want to cry me a river? you can't act like my want wasn't warranted, that I had no reason for it. with everything you did, how you acted, how I was treated, you would have wanted it to.

it hurt me, it hurt me so much up until I was free. I finally knew it was done, it was over, I didn't have to worry anymore.


can you hear that, Paris?
your people are dead and your nation has fallen.
you have not a person to blame but yourself.