A Man

Feb. 9th, 2026 10:32 pm
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I like my dad. Hes a good man.

He may not be very reliable, he may be a little flaky at time, or hard to reach. And there was the time he bailed on his own birthday. We were about to light the candle but he said he needed to go to the corner store real quick and grab something. We didn't see him for a few weeks. There was the after time he left my little brothers birthday party while i was crying for him. He blamed my mom for it. He had his girlfriend there and a baby im not sure was his. He spent quite the time with it.

There are plenty of time were he wasn't really a great father but i think hes a good dad.
Hes not even my real dad but i couldn't tell the difference. From the moment he came into my life to now.
Even while hes not with my mom he still trys to be there for us, for me. Not even blood but he always treats us like it.

Hes a good dad, and amazing dad, and just as there is bad there is also good.

Like how he always thinks of us as soon as he got payed. From when i was a little girl and even to now. I have the memories of him calling my mom telling her he got paid and asking us what we wanted from the store. And then just this weekend he offered to take me to a surplus store because he knows I've been wanting to go, and even when i didn't have the money he said he would by me something. I got a coat, a nice coat, 50 something bucks. He even came home and gave my brother 50 so we had an equal split. And Then also when i mentioned wanting a helmet but not wanting to get one from there with how expensive they are he said he may know a guy who has one and that he'd get it for me.

What about the bike? I had been talking about wanting to get one, asking for jobs from him so i could save up to buy my own. I only talked about it, never asked. Then a week or so later he came home telling me he had gotten me one. Nothing new, probably an old one but that didn't matter. I didn't care if it was new or old just that i had one. I was so happy, and still am

He always thinks of me, he does. It may not feel like it sometimes or it may feel far but at least its there. At least he's there. He's always cared for me and hes always here for me even when i feel alone and even when hes hard to reach.

So yeah, i like my dad, i love him. Hes a good man. And even though there are some bad things, there are good things to make up for it.

I love him so much and i will always be my dad's girl, his daughter.

Im me!

Oct. 17th, 2025 04:48 pm
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I was just sorta reminded that i am polyamorous. That is completely part of my identity! you're probably wondering, "how could you forget something that seems so important?" well I haven't practiced that part of me in a good long while but that doesn't make it any less prescient.

I've been poly since 6th grade and since then that term has stayed with me. it makes me happy. I can't describe but something about being poly, the fact that I am able to love so far and so big, it makes me so so genuinely happy. though I haven't been in many good poly relationships I'm still happy with it in me.

I probably won't be in any poly relationship any time soon, I'm not really looking for one and I'm really happy with just me and my boyfriend, I wouldn't be opposed to it.

I genuinely love being polyamorous, I love everything about it, I love seeing poly relationship, and poly people. I love this as part of my identity. And as much as I hate or dislike myself, as much as I say all these things sometimes, I do really think that deep down somewhere I do love me.

I love myself.
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Every time he talks to me, or he sends me a video.
ANYTIME HE POSTS ABOUT ME I WANT TO CRRRYYY!!!

THIS IS EVERYTHING. Its just the small thing like that that make me feel so loved, that I wanted so so bad, that I asked for CONSTANTLY!!!

If I look happier its because I AM HAPPIER!! He makes me feel loved, he makes me feel cared for. I know that I could trust him simply just not to cheat. he makes me feel seen and safe. I trust him, with everything I have I trust him.

He loves me he really loves me.

I love him.

Cough I did not start crying by the end of this sybau

Yay!

Sep. 7th, 2025 09:55 pm
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I was wrong, my birthday party and my birthday were great! I had a lot of fun and i was happy! I got two hangout with my two favorite people, i got to shop, and i just got to have fun. My favorite part were getting these two new plushies i really love. Achilles and Amphitrite. My loves, my darlings.

I want to cry, it was a good day.

I love you!

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