Playing a game

I love that i cant ever really mention about my sa without making it a joke.
I only mention it as a joke.
I've only ever actually talked about it twice, and one of those people who i have talked about it with turned out to be someone i probably won't ever really talk to again.

I guess it doesn't really matter though, huh? It doesn't really effect me in my current day, like genuinely.
I don't panic about it, have nightmares or stuff.
Its just kinda like a thing that sits there collecting dust you know you should take it and throw it out but because its not really in the way you don't.

I'll be honest i don't even think about it as sa. I don't even think about in some kind of bad light. I don't even really think about it.

And when i do its just sort of a: "huh.. anyway." Feeling.

Maybe something will happen when i get older. I don't know.