Hello.

With even what i doubt, if you're one of those people and you came to look at this for a reason why.


Dw about it, crashing out, dont come and excessively worry and care, its fine.

If you txt me, dont expect me to reply. Infact, don't text me at all.

edit - i kinda got all of my stuff taken away so i couldnt even txt if i wanted to

Sicko!!

(I started this last night but didn't finish it and I'm not going to)

I always feel bad, I worry about it a lot, that ill do something, that'll cross a line and ruin everything.

I hate how much I "can't help it" its so stupid, that damn "need." Its sick I'm truly sick. I haven't said anything big, I haven't done anything or have tried but I still think about it and I feel horrible for doing so.

"You look happier" I AM!!

Every time he talks to me, or he sends me a video.
ANYTIME HE POSTS ABOUT ME I WANT TO CRRRYYY!!!

THIS IS EVERYTHING. Its just the small thing like that that make me feel so loved, that I wanted so so bad, that I asked for CONSTANTLY!!!

If I look happier its because I AM HAPPIER!! He makes me feel loved, he makes me feel cared for. I know that I could trust him simply just not to cheat. he makes me feel seen and safe. I trust him, with everything I have I trust him.

He loves me he really loves me.

I love him.

Cough I did not start crying by the end of this sybau