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dirtbugdiedYou know how the little things that happen in the morning can determine how the rest of your day is gonna be? How your morning can really tell you how good or bad your day will be. Well ill have a bad day i guess. Bad morning, bad day, and it doesn't seem to be getting better yet either.
Didn't sleep well, woke up a few time because my legs hurt. Woke up earlier than usual, I'll be tired today now. Having to get dressed was hard, nothing felt right, I don't have a sweater and it's cold in the morning. My hair isn't how i want it and i don't have my bandana to put it up because I forgot it. I forgot my earbuds, the only I have are the broken red ones, that im about to stomp right now. Those bitch ass freshman took my spot again. And i have to sit alone in the morning.
Im out already, out of it. Im already done for the day. I want to go home. I also have to deal with that thing today, with him too. It gets worse. It only gets worse. I hate feelings to be honest.
Side note.
My birthday is coming up, the 7th, my birthday party is tomorrow, the 6th. I don't feel excited about. I mean i do, of course i do. I love my birthday, i always have, but this one just doesn't feel it. It feels trashed, rushed, i barley gave anyone a heads up, and i just know it wont be how i want it to be. Theres also my birthday. Its starting to feel less like a celebration for me and more like another day. I literally forgot like 3 time this week. Its just another day. I get to be a year older.
I feel like time is slowing down but at the same time going so fast im not able to keep up. Im tired. Too much and not enough is happening. Hes gonna drive me crazy. Im gonna drive me crazy. Its all gonna fucking drive me crazy.
Didn't sleep well, woke up a few time because my legs hurt. Woke up earlier than usual, I'll be tired today now. Having to get dressed was hard, nothing felt right, I don't have a sweater and it's cold in the morning. My hair isn't how i want it and i don't have my bandana to put it up because I forgot it. I forgot my earbuds, the only I have are the broken red ones, that im about to stomp right now. Those bitch ass freshman took my spot again. And i have to sit alone in the morning.
Im out already, out of it. Im already done for the day. I want to go home. I also have to deal with that thing today, with him too. It gets worse. It only gets worse. I hate feelings to be honest.
Side note.
My birthday is coming up, the 7th, my birthday party is tomorrow, the 6th. I don't feel excited about. I mean i do, of course i do. I love my birthday, i always have, but this one just doesn't feel it. It feels trashed, rushed, i barley gave anyone a heads up, and i just know it wont be how i want it to be. Theres also my birthday. Its starting to feel less like a celebration for me and more like another day. I literally forgot like 3 time this week. Its just another day. I get to be a year older.
I feel like time is slowing down but at the same time going so fast im not able to keep up. Im tired. Too much and not enough is happening. Hes gonna drive me crazy. Im gonna drive me crazy. Its all gonna fucking drive me crazy.
