Yaaaayyy..!!
Jan. 19th, 2026 10:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dirtbugdiedAm i going to suffer? Absolutely!
I mean im excited, of course i am! Buuuut im also scaredd!
I don't do good in situations like this, especially while I've already been feeling out of place next to anyone. I probably would have been more okay if ian was going but sometimes they don't have a back bone— these people that im hanging out with although they're my friends they feel a little more like strangers sometimes (yes including my bf but that is a different rant for a different day) so in my head im gonna feel the most out of place I've ever felt in a while. Especially with my emotions being high right now i know im not gonna be the only one whos gonna front so thats gonna be fun! Something tells me i may be seeing Harvey today!
Yes, im excited, i get to do a fun thing with a group of my friends.
But fuck, im already lost and overwhelmed with everything that i want to cry. Im going into this COMPLETELY blind not to mention im more like being shoved into this. (not thats a bad thing i probably wouldn't have done anything with it if i hadn't)
I just hate this kinda of stuff, being taught something completely new, hanging around people i feel like i hardly know. I think i just hate being pushed outside my comfort zone.
Aughhhh but it has to happen eventually right?
Jeez.
I mean im excited, of course i am! Buuuut im also scaredd!
I don't do good in situations like this, especially while I've already been feeling out of place next to anyone. I probably would have been more okay if ian was going but sometimes they don't have a back bone— these people that im hanging out with although they're my friends they feel a little more like strangers sometimes (yes including my bf but that is a different rant for a different day) so in my head im gonna feel the most out of place I've ever felt in a while. Especially with my emotions being high right now i know im not gonna be the only one whos gonna front so thats gonna be fun! Something tells me i may be seeing Harvey today!
Yes, im excited, i get to do a fun thing with a group of my friends.
But fuck, im already lost and overwhelmed with everything that i want to cry. Im going into this COMPLETELY blind not to mention im more like being shoved into this. (not thats a bad thing i probably wouldn't have done anything with it if i hadn't)
I just hate this kinda of stuff, being taught something completely new, hanging around people i feel like i hardly know. I think i just hate being pushed outside my comfort zone.
Aughhhh but it has to happen eventually right?
Jeez.
