What?

Feelings I do not know how to describe.

I know something is wrong with me, I know I feel something right now, I just don't know how to put it down into words. its like loneliness and need, a little like boredom and emptiness I guess. I know it has to do with needing someone, needing attention and affection, and just stuff like that. but also I want to feel alone and abandoned?

I don't know.
I feel something though. want to write big paragraphs about it but I have nothing to write. I also just don't want to repeat other posts I guess.