Why Do You Lie?
Aug. 28th, 2025 07:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dirtbugdiedOh and you expect me not to? You expect me to talk about my feelings, open up to someone?? Yeah and what would that even get me? "Comfort" , "care" ? Bullshit. The only thing i have a chance of getting is rejection, half ass pity, and chances of another person gone.
Lying can get you that too. Not if your good at lying. Im good at lying when it comes down to it, obviously, lie to all these people and they believe me. Whatever, who cares. Its not like they'll fine out anytime soon? Its been years not and i have it all the same. I gave up on opening up and in turn no one questions were asked of me anymore. Bingo, I somehow magically got all better. Obviously
Theres no point in telling me not to lie. Im not them, not him, i dont care. I'll make your empty promise, ill tell you how its alright, I'll keep up that fake fucking game i play i have no reason to stop and you have no reason to question me.
But then your words are fucking meaningless you realize. You cant sit here and beg for that attention, beg for that feeling, beg that just someone out there will care if you give them no fucking reason to care. You put yourself in your own hole and you keep digging down. Its no one's fault but your damn own.
I can do whatever i want. Its not like im actually begging somebody real. Im writing down my thoughts and needs in a space i know no one will look. In a place I already know no one will care. I do that for a reason dimwit. I said it once ill say it again.
Theres no fear of rejection if theres no one to reject it.
Lying can get you that too. Not if your good at lying. Im good at lying when it comes down to it, obviously, lie to all these people and they believe me. Whatever, who cares. Its not like they'll fine out anytime soon? Its been years not and i have it all the same. I gave up on opening up and in turn no one questions were asked of me anymore. Bingo, I somehow magically got all better. Obviously
Theres no point in telling me not to lie. Im not them, not him, i dont care. I'll make your empty promise, ill tell you how its alright, I'll keep up that fake fucking game i play i have no reason to stop and you have no reason to question me.
But then your words are fucking meaningless you realize. You cant sit here and beg for that attention, beg for that feeling, beg that just someone out there will care if you give them no fucking reason to care. You put yourself in your own hole and you keep digging down. Its no one's fault but your damn own.
I can do whatever i want. Its not like im actually begging somebody real. Im writing down my thoughts and needs in a space i know no one will look. In a place I already know no one will care. I do that for a reason dimwit. I said it once ill say it again.
Theres no fear of rejection if theres no one to reject it.
