Okay

I try to pretend or act like it doesn't hurt my feelings in anyway but it always does. I end up feeling like a nuisance or unimportant. Like im Just simply not to be bothered with.

It was the same feelings that got me groomed those few times around. Sometimes i still feel like i miss Ethan. I know i shouldn't but i also know its normal. He gave me attention, always wanted to call or such, i really didn't even have to do much for anything. I remember, also, how it was during the high of my TCC "phase."
He talked about goin and being dylan and eric somewhere then fucking it out on a table. I didn't care much for the fucking part, just the one were i could get out my emotions on random mostly innocent kids.
I was a weirdo. I still am, i just keep it to my own now.

I wonder, if i was single, how bad would i let myself get with people online.
I guess its sorta good we won't know. I love my boyfriend and I'll never leave him.
𝘐'𝘭𝘭 never leave 𝘩𝘪𝘮.

I don't know what else to write, i have no one to talk to so i guess I'll go online to see if anyone is interested in hearing about my new ocs.

And another

I keep looking at the full bottle of ibuprofen on my dresser.

Oh if only i didn't have so much to lose