Damn

Wow, i Worte this whole lengthy message for you yet i have no way of actually getting it to you in the way that i wanted. I wish you were one to check my dw but i no your not.
Whatever, who cares I'll post it here anyway. It doesn't matter.

I miss you and it sucks. I know you see this, i know you get the notification for it and i hope you actually take the time to come and read it.
It's stupid, doing it this way like some pussy who can't face conflict. That's what I am though. It's better than sending you a text and risking never getting a reply, at least this way i don't even know if you see it.
I miss you, though. I miss everything and i hate it. I tried to not let it affect me, that i was gonna be fine on my own and it would all be okay and for the first half it was. Then it wasn't.
I hated watching it go down hill because i cared and loved you a lot but then you stopped making an effort so i followed suit because I wasn't gonna be another mutt left waiting and pawing at the door and yet i still was.
Do you think about it, like at all? Do you miss me, like at all?
Maybe you never really cared for me at all and i don't know if i prefer that over you simply losing interest.
You know, im thinking about abandoning it all now, everyone we mutually new. Leaving the server blocking and unfriending the people we shared. Deleting every stupid screenshot i have.
I dont know if i will, i truly doubted it. It would be easier dying without anyone knowing.
Some part hopes you see this another part hopes you don't.
I put too much of my love and care on you now you get to decide what to do with it.
Please.